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  • Yes, it’s true. my heart is battered and bruised. My flesh always sly and conniving. The constant struggle of my sins, has kept me up most nights. I know that from all this satan wants me to fall, fall away from God because he hasn’t answered my prayers or it hasn’t gone the way I want it to. But I won’t let that happen. More than ever I so badly want Christ…it shows me why exactly I need him. Fall after fall I get so flustered but not with God, with myself. If anything with each fall I want to move closer to God. With each bad thing that happens in my life I want to find two things that God has blessed me with. I don’t want to live a life of always wanting more, or upset that I didn’t get what I want. I want to live it fully with the things that He has given me. 

    With that, I have a lot of sin in my life. That constantly I am trying to fight. But I do know, that for some reason that only God knows, that someday he will make all of it beautiful. And honestly I have no idea how it could be, but I believe that my God can take anything and make it used for His glory. So yes, life is hard. He never said it was going to be easy. But I’m ready to start fully living this hard life with Gods hand in mine. I can no longer do this on my own,because I constantly fail. C O N S T A N T L Y. So here is to vulnerability and brokenness, but God is slowly but surely putting me back together. A stronger woman, who loves God with an insane love and trust Him with her entire being.

    "Come, let us return to the LORD. He has torn us to pieces but he will heal us; he has injured us but he will bind up our wounds. After two days he will revive us; on the third day he will restore us, that we may live in his presence.Let us acknowledge the LORD; let us press on to acknowledge him. As surely as the sun rises, he will appear; he will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth.” 

    H O S E A 6:1-3



  • This is my view for the past hour and how every many extra minutes I spent doing the dishes. This isn’t even the worst that it looked. Tonight I took on the mountain of dishes that was piled in our sink. Satan likes to use these types of things to get under our skin, to stir up war in our houses. I live with three other girls and live is insane. Tonight I decided to set my pet peeves aside and to do the dishes not for recognition but to choose to love each and everyone of my roommates through it. As I stood their and scrubbed away I had Francesca Battistelli playing and her lyrics struck my heart. The Lord was speaking to me through the lyrics. 
We live with broken people who are flawed and we get to see those flaws daily but we need to choose to love them despite those flaws. So yes it drives me insane that our kitchen looks like this 75% of the time….. but I just realized that I am not gonna let satan have that hold on me. I’m not gonna let the anger in my heart. I know i’m not the only one out there that has these issues, so this week I challenge you to love your roommates/ family members/ husbands or wives through your pet peeves. Pray for them and love them through all the hard times. Even when you have every reason not to, forget your flesh and selfishness and think of them. It changes your perspective. 

    This is my view for the past hour and how every many extra minutes I spent doing the dishes. This isn’t even the worst that it looked. Tonight I took on the mountain of dishes that was piled in our sink. Satan likes to use these types of things to get under our skin, to stir up war in our houses. I live with three other girls and live is insane. Tonight I decided to set my pet peeves aside and to do the dishes not for recognition but to choose to love each and everyone of my roommates through it. As I stood their and scrubbed away I had Francesca Battistelli playing and her lyrics struck my heart. The Lord was speaking to me through the lyrics. 

    We live with broken people who are flawed and we get to see those flaws daily but we need to choose to love them despite those flaws. So yes it drives me insane that our kitchen looks like this 75% of the time….. but I just realized that I am not gonna let satan have that hold on me. I’m not gonna let the anger in my heart. I know i’m not the only one out there that has these issues, so this week I challenge you to love your roommates/ family members/ husbands or wives through your pet peeves. Pray for them and love them through all the hard times. Even when you have every reason not to, forget your flesh and selfishness and think of them. It changes your perspective. 

  • when I see this, all I want to do is praise Him

    when I see this, all I want to do is praise Him

    (Source: browneyedpretty, via bibliophileandjesuslover)

  • Tonight I was sitting in my apartment all alone and I decided to start writing in my journal/ praying to God just about certain fears of this semester coming up. I was focusing more on the good things that will come of this year and praying specifically for our apartment and for all of our relationships. That we, (the three other girls + myself) would spur one another on to love the Lord. So as i’m sitting here and praying for that and new changes that are sneaking up on me, my roommate walks into my room. She sits across from me on the empty bed that my roommate hasn’t yet moved in, and all of a sudden our convo takes off. We talked about our fears and about what we want to work on, we talked about God and His work in our lives this summer. We encouraged and spoke truth and we both decided to hold each other/ the other girls accountable. Just like that my prayers were answered and God showed me without a doubt a little taste of what this semester is going to be about. My heart is so full and it is honestly the coolest feeling to know that He was listening and that He wants the best for me. I know it wasn’t an accident and Kirsten (my roommate) most definitely didn’t need to stay up and talk. She has a way early morning…but man was it worth it. Can’t wait for more nights like these and to keep remembering that He really is in control and he has good things planned for us. 



  • sweethoneytothesoul:

Yes yes yes. Needed these words tonight. Thanking Jesus for allowing me to have hope in this broken world.

    sweethoneytothesoul:

    Yes yes yes. Needed these words tonight. Thanking Jesus for allowing me to have hope in this broken world.

  • This picture describes how fast this summer went. Last summer I was wanting to go home right when I got to camp and this year I didn’t want to leave. God did some incredible things this summer. He revived me. I had wandered so far away from Him that everything in my life was blurry. I was turning to things that I thought would give me joy but in reality He is the only thing that can give me that. I found myself again this summer, and it feels so good because I have this never ending joy in my heart. And one thing I know for sure is that joy is Jesus Christ. 

    This picture describes how fast this summer went. Last summer I was wanting to go home right when I got to camp and this year I didn’t want to leave. God did some incredible things this summer. He revived me. I had wandered so far away from Him that everything in my life was blurry. I was turning to things that I thought would give me joy but in reality He is the only thing that can give me that. I found myself again this summer, and it feels so good because I have this never ending joy in my heart. And one thing I know for sure is that joy is Jesus Christ. 

  • Lately i’ve been overwhelmed with a peace I haven’t felt in years. For the first time in a while I actually see the bigger picture and don’t let all the little details trip me up. I use to let everything affect me, and it would change my mood in seconds. But i’ve really found that The Lord is in charge of it all and He works for the good of those who love Him. So why should I worry about the forming relationship that could crash at any moment or about my apartment and what it will look like, or even getting that 4.0 i’ve been dreaming about. It’s been freeing, i’ve felt new and burden free, because I have been handing it all to Him.I encourage you to try it, because my dear friends it’s been incredible to sit in His hands and depend on Him. Try it out, you won’t be disappointed.



  • When life feels like it’s spinning out of control, is when you gotta reach high and look hard for God. That’s something He has been teaching me… That even when you feel like you are completely lost and have no idea what on earth you are doing you HAVE to cling to Him. There will be days you won’t do that, and those days will be the hardest but on the days you realize you need him, you’ll find peace. I can’t say i’ve achieved that in the past few weeks, but I know that’s where I want to be. In the Lords presence, with peace dwelling within me. 

    My prayer lately: 

    "Let it be Jesus, the first name that I call. Let it be Jesus, my song inside the storm. I’ll never need another, cause Jesus there’s no other." 



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